SPORTS

Sports. 

Why do I like sports so much? What makes sports an important part of my life? How can you hate them and love them at the same time? 

I played golf last weekend. I arrived and was ready to play and have fun but mainly to win. I left, lost by 3 strokes, wanted to break my clubs, and never hit a golf ball again, oh and kill Tiger Woods. Two hours later, I was practicing my putting in my room. Why? Something about sports just makes me want to come back for more. I shoot baskets on the driveway and pretend I am shooting the game winning shot in an important game, somehow I always end up winning the game in the end just to make myself happy. But why do I even get mad when I miss one shot? No one even knew I missed it. There really aren't thousands of people watching. I watched Josh Hamilton hit 28 homeruns in the first round of the homerun derby and listened to him say that four years ago he wasted millions of dollars getting high and screwing up his life, the last thing he said is "this is unlike any high I have ever experienced." And that, is why he loves baseball. It is an amazing high. Everyone loves it for a different reason. Erin told me today, and quote "I realized why I like sports. Sports can't personally let you down. I mean, you can be sad and disappointed that your team doesn't win, but their losing has nothing to do with you. It's not them getting back at you for not waiting for them to go to lunch. It's not them being jealous of the time you spend at the gym. Like, I'm pissed at the sports guy for taking a 10 week break, and it's a way for me to realease any built up anger that I have on him.  But I know that he's not doing it to ME. And when he puts up a new podcast I completely forgive him." And so Erin is right. Sports are something no one can really explain. But they don't let you down, and no matter what, in sports...there is always a chance. And that slim chance, that it is possible, is what brings you back for more. And in the words of Josh Hamilton, it is an amazing high.